Being happy is a constant in my life and I honestly had never thought about why until someone asked me.

I dealt with a lot of loss as a child. The loss of friends since I didn’t “fit in,” the loss of my grandfather to cancer and the fact that I was left behind by part my father’s family who didn’t want me anymore. I needed a person to pick me up and show me what happiness can be like, so I lunge at the chance to help somebody or to make his or her day.

That’s why I’m a Christian counselor for children. I teach them about how life is so much more than just this world and what people think. I know I can be a hypocrite by saying that, but it’s the truth and so many young girls need to hear it. They get ripped apart and don’t understand why, and I am proof that no matter what, you can work past other’s comments and expectations.

My counselor as a child, Lynlee, called me out of my dark days. She showed me how God could move in me if I let go and decided to let him take control. And after casting my problems off, I got an overwhelming feeling of joy. I found my happiness, so in return I give my happiness back to the world that so desperately needs it.

This world needs light and happiness since it is filled with so much despair. People tear others down, but expect others to build them up.

This world is a vicious cycle I want to break. I’m captivated at the thought of being different. A thought that used to scare me so much has become my motivation to move forward.

God put me on this world for a purpose and I found it. To be a light. To be a smile. To be a person different enough to change the cycle.